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Thu, Apr. 30th, 2009, 12:40 am

I do drugs every day, im fucked up every day i do it to get by, im drunk right now in fact, thats why i probably logged into this thing, i generally forget i have it.

I use it to complain abouut things like that my best friend is having sex with this girl i like somewhere.. he just left where we were hanging out so they can have some private time, im trying to get it off my head, im failing.

I haven't been employed for a month, im trying my best and failing, im near homeless and havent been in one spot for more then 4 months at a time since i was 16.

Its been 14 months since ive been in a relationship, everybody ive been with seems to be happy with whoever else there with, not one has been with anyone for less then a year or so.

Whatever the hells been keeping me going, i want to know what it is.
probably deleting this when i remember i did it.. yupppp

Fri, Apr. 3rd, 2009, 04:31 pm

I think there several times when a human being is down in there life where they start losing faith in others and even those close to them. its usually lapses but they come and go.

well im done, everybody just is in it for themselves anyway, its only science.

livejournals are excellent vents.

Sun, Mar. 15th, 2009, 12:49 pm

I love the feeling of waking up and having nowhere to go, nothing needed to get done, just laying in bed grabbing your ipod and putting it on random as you let time pointlessly slip away, it never gets to happen anymore like this.

then you open your eyes put two feet on the ground and think, "Man, do i have a brutal hangover"

Sun, Mar. 1st, 2009, 08:07 pm

I'm already about to quit.

Wed, Feb. 25th, 2009, 09:06 pm

I now make 16.25 an hour selling the sharpest knives on the market.

Ok Computer was my favorite album as a kid and now im a suit.

Ironic

Thu, Feb. 5th, 2009, 12:20 pm

Does anybody in there own mind even view themselves as "attractive"?

The older I get the more I'm aware the human condition is very pessimistic.

Wed, Jan. 28th, 2009, 12:44 pm

I just went through my photobucket and thought id share some of these seeing as I just felt like updating this thing for the first time in months.

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*Generic I miss high school sigh*

Mon, Dec. 1st, 2008, 12:00 pm

A real post from Ryan Hoon

Since when am I almost 20, last I checked I was 17 and it was 2006.

People were excited for things like xbox 360s, and snakes on a plane.

This pretty much means I am not a kid anymore.

But now i'm more organized, less angsty, more interested in many more things.

I don't find entertainment in spending hours with video games or myspace anymore

I'm not getting with random people every weekend.

I've stuck with four close friends and that's it.

I've even accepted that only Clark or Brenden will leave posts back.

And wow, almost completely accurate spelling and grammar!

But at the same time it scares me, growing up means devoting all my time to college and work.

I'm still not ready.

Tue, Nov. 4th, 2008, 11:39 am

Today is the single scariest day of my life.

Thu, Oct. 30th, 2008, 12:12 pm

Blu-Ray players completely confuse me..

Because you know everybody is completely ready in this economic time to revamp their movie collection.

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